Monday, June 23, 2008

Life Changes in Seconds

A lot has happened in the past couple weeks.
On Wednesday, June 4, my mom traveled to Wausau to meet with a pulmonary doctor for a consultation as a few weeks prior to that, she had a CT scan that revealed a potential mass in her middle chest cavity. I met mom at the hospital and the doctor revealed that there was indeed a mass in her chest, but that in order to determine what the mass was, she would need a mediastenoscopy (a biopsy) of it. So, the following week, we met an old friend of mom's, her heart surgeon from 2002. Since he was intimately aware of how her heart surgery went and the mediastenoscopy is done through the chest cavity, he was the best possible person for the job so we met with him a week later on Thursday, June 12,. which he then scheduled a PET Scan Monday, June 16, followed the next day, June 17, by the mediastenoscopy. Mom made it through both procedures like a champ. While we waiting for the appointment with the surgeon to find out the results of the biopsy, Mom enjoyed getting to spend the week with Mark, Bailey and me.
On Thursday, June 19, our world as we knew it changed forever. We had the follow up visit with the heart surgeon who informed mom, that she does in fact have cancer. He made arrangements for mom to meet with the Aspirus Regional Cancer Center oncologist the very next day. So, with that news to absorb, Mom and I made the trip back to my house were we talked, cried, made lots of phone calls to family and friends and waited for the next day's visit to the oncologist.
Friday, June 20, we met with Dr. Harish Ahuja, one of the lung oncologists at the Cancer Center and he told us that Mom has cancer in her lymph nodes, lung and tail bone. The cancer is in Stage 4 and has metasticised (meaning it has spread). The first order of business is to get the pain managed since what she thought was siatic nerve pain for the past few months, is actually pinching of nerves from the tumor in her tail bone and the severe cough she's had is from the lymph nodes/lung cancer. Dr. Ahuja believes that the best course of treatment is to do 2-3 weeks of radiation therapy followed by chemotherapy. The radiation will be used to shrink the tumor in her tail bone hopefully providing some relief to the siatic nerve. The chemotherapy will be used for the lymph nodes and lungs. For now, she's enjoying the benefits of some very strong pain meds. The radiation begins tomorrow and will be done every day for at least the next 12 days. On July 1, Mom has an MRI of her brain to make sure that the cancer has not spread to that area. If all looks well, then the chemotherapy can being. One of the medications that will be given with her chemotherapy blocks blood flow to the cancer, which is why they need to be sure there is no cancer in the brain or it could have devastating effects. We meet again with Dr. Ahuja July 10 for the MRI results.
Therefore, the reason behind my blog title. Life does truly change in a matter of seconds. I would have never believed that the "allergy cough" my mom was first diagnosed with last month, and the siatic nerve pain she was being treated for with the chiropractor, would have ever turned into the reality of cancer. I just keep telling myself that God does have a purpose and a reason for everything -- after all, that is something my mom has always taught me and even now, she is the one telling me, "God will take care of me." I sure wish I had her strength and faith right now.
Everyone keeps asking me how mom is holding up. My answer to that is "well, given the circumstances" she is a very strong woman and she told me "I am not going to let this make me feel defeated because as soon as I do that, I've given up and I'm not going to do that." She has a very long road ahead of her and we're all trying to do our best right now to stay strong, believe God will take care of her and take each day as they come.
To everyone who reads our blog, please keep our family in your prayers.

Monday, June 2, 2008

Life's Journey

Mark, Bailey and I traveled to Park Falls over the Memorial Day holiday to celebrate a belated Mother's Day with Mom T and also share in the occassion of our niece (and my God Child) Stephanie's confirmation. The weekend went very quickly, but we had a really nice time getting to see everyone and also having the chance to visit with family that we don't get to see very often.
Stephanie's confirmation got me thinking back to when I was 14 and my confirmation day. Back then, the impact that day had on me didn't truly seem to be that big of a deal, but now, looking back, I realize that my confirmation was the start of the bigger journeys in life. After all, next came my drivers license, then graduations from high school and tech school, my first "real job", marrying the man of my dreams, buying our first home, adding Bailey to our family, and it started with the occasion of my confirmation. As a child, I think you take for granted what that day means, and now, as an adult, I fully understand the importance of that day in my life. A lot of what Mark and I are going through now with the infertility has proven to challenge my thoughts and beliefs in God. I guess in reality, it had made me lose faith. But as I sat in church listening to the confirmation message, I began to understand that had I not been confirmed and shown the way of God back then, I wouldn't have been able to go through this large of a life challenge and still be "ok" if it weren't for the strong faith that I do have in God. One of the sayings I live by is that everything in life happens for a reason, I just didn't understand until now that God isn't punishing me in any way, He just is giving me this challenge because I do have a strong faith that in the end, He will answer my prayers. Who would have thought that it would take my niece's confirmation for it to all make sense to me. I guess this is all part of life's journey. We never know what path we are going to take in life, but if we have a loving family, an awesome spouse, great friends, and faith in God, life will turn out exactly as it should.
Stephanie, we also want to reiterate to you how much we love you and how very proud we are of you for accomplishing this first step in your life journey. We can't wait to see what great things unfold in the years ahead for you!